fml

You don't even know how to tolerate and give in..

you expect me to do the same to you when you don't even try to change?

please..


i really beg you to think..

really cannot stand the way you treating me now..

like some piece of worthless trash..

plastic you say..
i'm a piece of plastic..

wtf does that even mean?
a new way to say you love me?

i guess you never knew how hurt i feel inside me..



DO YOU KNOW WHAT LOUSY THINGS MY MUM SPEAKS OF YOU?
YET I PROTECTED YOU FROM ALL HER DISTRUST
I TOLD HER YOU ARE NOT LIKE THAT DEEP DOWN INSIDE..
BUT WHAT THE HELL YOU SHOWING HER NOW IS JUST WHO SHE THINKS ITS THE REAL YOU.
I REALLY HAVE NOTHING TO SAY WHEN YOU TREAT ME LIKE SOME STUPID CREATURE THAT YOU DESPISE.

YA,
I KNOW I'M NOT AS SMART AS YOU BUT AT LEAST I PUT IN MORE EFFORT THAN YOU DO IN THIS RELATIONSHIP
I DON'T CARE WHO THE HECK SAYS ABOUT YOU
I JUST THINK YOU WILL CHANGE AND NOT BE WHO THEY THINK YOU ARE.
BUT AS TIME PASSES
I DON'T KNOW IF YOU ARE BEING NATURAL WITH ME LIKE THE WAY YOU REALLY ARE OR JUST BEING SOMEONE YOU ARE NOT.
WHICH IS THE REAL YOU?

SOMEONE WHOM I KNOW 3 YEARS AGO?
OR THE ONE I AM HAVING MIS-COMMUNICATION WITH NOW?

ITS REALLY A TORTURE WHEN I HEAR VOICES THAT SPEAKS BAD ABOUT YOU AND TRYING TO IGNORE IT.
I DID NOT TELL YOU ANYTHING CAUSE I THINK IT WILL ONLY MAKE THE MATTER WORST
BUT THE TRUTH IS YOU DON'T GET WHO YOU ARE UNLESS SOMEONE TELLS YOU IN THE FACE
YOU CAN'T SEE IT IN YOUR REFLECTION
AND THINK THAT YOU ARE GIVING UP THE WORLD FOR ME
WHY IS THIS SO?
I JUST CAN'T STOP TYPING CAUSE I HAVE SO MUCH SO MUCH IN MY HEART THAT I WANT TO SAY IT OUT LOUD TO THE WORLD.
BUT I CAN'T....

IF I DO
I'M AFRAID THERE WILL BE NO TURNING BACK

STOP NAGGING MUM.. .. .. .. .. .. .. ..
FUCK MY LIFE...